Oaks Park / Lorraine Carl (Mom's friend ) Tomorrow we all go to Oaks Park, but without you there, your Mom,Dad,brother and daughter will have you close to them in thier hearts..<3 <3 <3 <3 ~~~(~~(@Close
Megan came across the book you were reading her last (Blackbeard's Ghost). Then she broke down and started crying saying that how much she misses her Mommy. I told her that Grampy or I would read it to her but she said it wouldn't be the same. So she doesn't want anyone to read it to her, at least not now. Gina we do miss you so much. I held Megan in my arms trying to make the pain go away, but she is just like me. The pain will always be there and we have to live like this the rest of our life's. It's not fair that such a little girl has to live her life in pain. It just kills me to think her little heart is in so much pain. She does a very good job not showing me how much she is hurting, but I told her that it's ok for her to cry when ever she wanted too. I told her I cry all the time and I just can't help it. I try not to cry in front of Grampy because it brings back bad memeories of You. The last time he saw you, and it haunts your father. So I try hard not to show anyone only Aunt Shirley. Aunt Shirley has really been good for me, she keeps me busy so I don't sit or lay around doing nothing. Our heart will never mead. WE LOVE YOU SWEETIE and MISS YOU SO MUCH. HUGS AND KISSES FOREVER
It's your 31st Birthday and I was thinking of you all day. I can't believe you have been in heaven for 2 of your birthdays. I had a terrible dream the other night. My dream was that your Daddy died and was with you and Gram and I could see the three of you all together. I couldn't hear anything you guys were saying but I just seen you all together. I got so upset because I wasn't with you, and I had to be here on earth. That everyone left me and I was sitting here in the living room crying my eyes out because I was alone without Gram, YOU, and now my husband. Life sucks for me sweetie and I can't help it. I died when you did, but I'm living here and trying to be a good Grammy to Megan. I know Megan needs me and I can't leave her because she needs me to teach her like you would. I'm trying hard to teach her what you would want her to learn but I'm afraid I won't do it right. I taught you right as your Mother but can I teach Megan right at my age and being her Grammy? I love you Sweetie. I'm so SORRY I didn't come here to write you on the day of your Birthday but I did sign you HAPPY BIRTHDAY at 8:30 a.m. on the 11th just like I did all the other years. GOD, I miss you so much and I put my arms and hands on your headstone and cried my eyes out and just wanted to hold you in my arms again. I LOVE YOU SWEET PEA
I can't believe it's been ONE YEAR since I had my arms around you, or I heard you say I LOVE YOU MOMMY. Your Aunt Shirley and Aunt Esther are trying to keep me busy so I'm not so sad all the time. I really enjoy their company but I have my moments of sadness. I think why in the heck am I still here on this earth? What does God have planned for me? I read in the Bible that when something happens to a person, it's God plan to bring that person closer to him. Well before your accident I thought I was close to him and I couldn't get enough of his word and teachings. I still believe in God but I don't feel close to him like I did before. My heart is aching so much and my mind is still mixed up. Aunt Shirley took me to your Memorial Cross on I-5 friday and we cut the grass. I couldn't believe how much the grass grew. I wanted to keep cutting and cutting and Aunt Shirley told me enough. I know one thing when it's time for the city to cut the grass they won't bother your cross now. I took pictures like always and also I took pictures of your resting place. We cut the grass on it also. Aunt Shirley said that was her 4th haircut this week. She sure can make me laugh, which you probably had something to do with that. I miss you SweetPea so much. Everyone is going on with their lives and I'm so afraid that you're out of their site you're going to be out of their minds. I want to keep you ALIVE and I want EVERYONE know you. How much you Love your husband, kids, brother, Aunts and Uncle, Friends and your Mom and Dad. I remember the last time I seen you, I remember what you were wearing, how happy you were. Why did you have to leave us/me? You're missing out on your brother's first girlfriend and she's is really a sweetheart and you would really like her. I think of everything you're missing and it's not fair. Life still sucks and all I want is you to come to me and talk with me. Hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok. Gina I love you more and more each day and my love for you will never stop growing. I want to put my arms around you Sweet Pea and just hold you and tell you that WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Nothing is the same anymore. I MISS HEARING YOUR LAUGH, you had such a special laugh which always made me laugh. I guess it's time to get the family video's out again and watch them so I can hear your voice. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, COME VISIT ME PLEASE GINA, your Mommy misses you so very much and NEEDS YOU.
Mother's Day wasn't suppose to be like this... / Lorraine Carl (Mom's "new" Sis )Read >>
Mother's Day wasn't suppose to be like this... / Lorraine Carl (Mom's "new" Sis ) Mom, I Hear Each Tear Fall On Your Face
My Mom doesn't know I'm watching her but I'm watching her just the same. And I hear each tear fall on her face at the very mention of my name.
She says it sounds like music to her ears and can be heard over a crowd. Oh, I hear each tear fall on her face when my name is said aloud.
I watch her stumble through each day as she wishes the day would end. And I hear each tear fall on her face as she talks of me to her friends.
But there are few who truly understand. Oh this I've heard her proclaim. And I hear each tear fall on her face. Will my Mom ever be the same?
I know that her smile lights up a sky. But I don't see that smile today. Oh, but I hear each tear fall on her face. Her blue skies have turned to gray.
Oh I send to her my warmest hug with the rays of the morning sun. Then, I won't hear a tear fall on her face. For I shall erase them one by one.
Yes, my Mom doesn't know I'm watching her. But I'm watching her just the same. And if I hear a tear fall on her face I'll just softly whisper her name! Close
Dad and I just want to wish you a HAPPY EASTER Sweetie. We're both having a bad day today. Patrick, Aunt Esther, Johnathan, Megan and I went and put flowers on Patrick's family resting place besides yours and Grams. Megan knew where Grams resting place was. That little girl of yours has a very good head on her shoulders. Megan also left you a card on your resting place and so did your Dad and I. We love you so much Sweetie. I can't help from feeling sometimes I wished I would of never gotten married, had children in the first place.
The pain your Dad and I have to live through the rest of our lives without you is just killing us. If I wouldn't have gotten married I would of never had you or your brother or have Megan as a grand daughter. Had Patrick or Johnathan in our lives either. Megan wouldn't have to go through the rest of her life in pain without her mother, your brother wouldn't have to go without his sister, your Dad and I wouldn't have to go without you. Patrick wouldn't have lost his soul mate and Johnathan wouldn't have to live the rest of his life like the rest of us. It sounds crazy but this is how I feel. I really don't see how life has to be so painful? People say God has plans for each and everyone of us but so far the plan is very hurtful to this entire family.
Gina I can't believe in about 4 weeks it's going to be ONE YEAR since you've been gone. I count each and every day, week, and month you're away from us (me). I miss my BEST FRIEND, MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER, I miss everything about you. Patrick says, everyone else is going on with their lives, but ME and that is my choice not to. It's not my choice, he doesn't understand how a parent or a MOTHER can survive without her child. It's just ripping me into, and I can't put the parts together. I try my hardest to go to church and believe like I did before your accident. But I can't find the same feelings I had before. I don't know where my heart or my mind is anymore. I'm just taking up space here on earth, letting people tell me what I should do. I'm here for others, I sure not here for myself. If I had a choice I would be with YOU. I LOVE YOU GINA WITH ALL MY HEART.
Just one year ago, I could see you in my kitchen with Megan coloring Easter Eggs. Megan brought over her Easter soccer bunny you gave her last Easter. She sprayed your perfume on it so we could smell your seant. I can see everything you did and say, and I MISS YOU AND I CAN'T STOP CRYING FOR YOU. If I'm hurting you more by grieving so much I'M SO SORRY. PLEASE FORGIVE ME, I just can't get over the lose of you. You were a very big part of my life, a big part of our family. WE LOVE YOU SWEETPEA SO MUCH. I don't know where you are but I hope you can see all of us and I really need your help. Because so far my life really sucks without you.
Life goes on / Mom (Best Friend ) My Dear Sweet Pea:
I miss you so much sweetie, life keeps going on and on and all I think of is somehow hoping that life does stop or bring you back. Your brother is happy with his life and I'm happy for him. I wished you were here to share his happiness. I know you would be proud of him as you were always. Gina, I love him so much and I miss you so much they both hurts. My tears are for my selfish reasons. I don't understand why some people gets hurt and some people gets kill in car accidents and how and why does it turn out the way it does? I'm so mixed up inside, life has never been easy and I don't expect it to be. But I never expected it to be this hard, I can't handle this emptiness I have in my heart, but also the happiness I have toward your brother. I wished I really knew so how you were in God's arm so I could relax. When I tell people I don't want to go on anymore I know I hurt their feels because they don't think I love him. Now do you know why I'm all mixed up? I'm happy one second and then the next second I'm unhappy. I'm going nuts, I don't want to work anymore, don't want to clean house just don't want to do anything anymore. Even things at church is changing and it hurts me, because I see I use to do things for the church and now since you're not here I don't do anything for them. It's all selfish on my part the way I feel, but I can't help it. I try my hardest to keep going and going into this world, but how can this world be wonderful without you in it? I miss my Best Friend, most of all My Loving Daughter who talked with me all the time and anything and nothing. I love you SweetPea with all my heart. I look at Megan and my heart breaks for her because now she has to grow up without you and how can I help her grow up? I want you do be able to do that and you should of. Why does this world have to be the way it has to be? I go over to Patrick's and it's not the same without you. I really start tearing up when I'm over there because I look around the house and everything I see is that YOU HAVE TOUCHED IT and you're not there. Nothing I do is right anymore, and I don't know how I'm going to keep going? I NEED God to show me the right way and I NEED you to tell me, talk with me in my head. I LOVE YOU SWEETIE SO MUCH. I remember everything about you and it hurts me so much because I can't love you anymore then I do. Gina my head hurts so much from crying and crying all the time. My heart hurts all the time with mixed feelings. I'll NEVER BE THE SAME PERSON AS YOU KNEW OR ANYONE ELSE KNEW ME AS, that person died when you died Sweetie. WHY? Did my baby girl have to leave me? Why did the guy next to you driving had to come over into your lane? Why did you not hit them? Why did you save their lives and gave up your own? I LOVE YOU SWEETIE AND I'M WANT YOU BACK. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Time keeps going on and I feel like I'm still at the night of your accident. Close
And God Said..... / Diane Angel Mom- Katie Cassidy Read >>
And God Said..... / Diane Angel Mom- Katie Cassidy
I said, God I hurt And God said, I know
I said, I cry alot And God said, That's why I gave you tears
I said, Life is so hard And God said, That's why I gave you loved ones
I said, But my loved one died!! And God said, So did mine!!
I said, It's such a great loss!! And God said, I saw mine nailed to a cross!!
I said, But your loved one lives!! And God said, So does yours!!
I said, Where is she now?? And God said, My Son is by my side and Your Daughter is in my arms!!
Bereaved Parents Wish List I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had her/him back.
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I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that she/he was important to you also.
Y
If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both.
Y
Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.
Y
I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child; my favorite topic of the day.
Y
I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug.
Y
I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over. These first years are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day I die.
Y
I am working hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my child and I will always grieve that she/he is gone.
Y
I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or "be happy". Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate yourself. Y
I don't want to have a "Pity party", but I do wish you would let me grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.
Y
I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when I'm feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as I am with you.
Y
When I say, "I'm doing okay", I wish you could understand that I don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.
Y
I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky.
Y
Your advice to "take it one day at a time" is excellent advice. However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.
Y
Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone. I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big part of me died with her. I am not the same person I was before my child died and I will never be that person again. Y I wish very much that you could understand ~ understand my loss and my grief. But.... I pray daily that you will never understand.
A MOTHER NEVER LETS GO....... / Lorraine Carl (freind) Barb keeps you closely in her heart and in all that she does you are always by her side, that keeps her going..........She'll never let go . Close
Thinking of you ALWAYS / MOM (Mother/Best Friend )Read >>
Thinking of you ALWAYS / MOM (Mother/Best Friend )
Last night I finally had another Dream about you SweetPea. I can't remember all of it, but you were a little girl. We went somewhere together and I kept on saying "Come on Gina" and everyone thought I was crazy. I could see you, but no one else could. But I didn't know it right away and I kept saying over and over Look at Gina, she's here, she didn't leave us she right beside me. You should of seen the look on friends and family faces. We were together no matter where we were. I was holding your hand and loving you every minute.
I guess I was just remembering you when you were a little girl, and my mind was saying you're still here with me. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME, and I don't care what anyone thinks. If I crazy then so be it, my Love for you will never go away. It just grows more each day.
I think of you and it's still hard for me to really believe that you're not alive on this earth. How can someone so loving, and caring be gone? How can my little girl be gone? We did everything together, you're my Best Friend and no one will ever take your place.
People tell me I have to let it go and go on with my life. How can a mother go on after losing her only Daughter and Best friend? I love you Gina with all my heart. I don't know how some of us can go on? I can't and I know you want me to be happy, but I just can't. Not without you. I don't want to go on and I can't see myself going on without you. I feel like I'm the only one that's left behind, everyone else has gone forward. I have to live the rest of my life of accepting things that I don't want too. My heart aches everyday and my mind is always on you. I guess I'm crazy, CRAZY OVER MY DAUGHTER AND BEST FRIEND.
HER MOTHER'S FAITHFULNESS / Lorraine C. (Freind of Mom's ) Gina will always be close in her Mom's thoughts,actions,emotions but forever in her HEART, her memory is always with her and never left behind, a bond inseperable. Everyone else seems to beable to "go on with THEIR lives", while her Mom's life is at a cemetary. Love you Barb, "Sis" Lorraine ~~~(~~(@ Close
Gina I just want you to know we all LOVE & Miss you so very much.Some people are picturing other things about our family love for each other. I don't know or why some people think the way the do? Maybe it’s jealousy of the love you and WE ALL have as a very close MOTHER, FATHER, BROTHER, HUSBAND, SON, and DAUGHTER and CERTAIN Cousins closeness which they didn’t have.Now that you’re gone, I think they are really sorry for the way they treated you while you were here.They can’t take anything back on what they did or say to you.They have to live with it and now it’s tarring them apart and they are blaming others for their actions.They can’t see the real truth because they are always bitter and angry with the whole world.It’s so sad they have to feel and think that way.All they are looking for is Family Love and they don’t know how to express their love in the right way.So they are still acting out their anger toward family and friends and pushing all of us farther away.Please guide those family members the right way and ask God to help them to have LESS ANGER and MORE LOVE toward Family and Friends.We Love you so much and Patrick is so lost without you and we’re so proud of him.You really knew what you were doing when you pick him as your husband.What a wonderful, loving, caring person he is.He treats your Father and myself as if we were his own parents.He loves you more each day and the sparkle in his eyes are still there when he talks about you. WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL OF OUR HEARTS. Watch over us SweetPea and I count each day you're not with us here on earth.
GINA & PATRICK LOVEGREN Patrick was and is the Love of her life...now and forever. He alone is raising THEIR beautiful daughter Megan, son Jonathan and provides a loving home for Gina's brother Daniel. Gina's Mom and Dad are there for Patrick as well as Patrick is there for them. A family of true commitment will never understand the "why" Gina has to wait in Heaven to see them again......
Prayer is all we can do? / Lorraine Carl (Friend) Dear loved ones. please keep Gina's family in your prayers. Sometimes that's all we can do, is just pray. "Moving on" is not possible for Barb and Cliff. Life just stands still. Please pray for the family. Close
Just stopping in / MOM SweetPea, I have been looking at your pictures longer and harder. I look at your eyes and I still can't accept you being away from me. I miss you so much SweetPea and I know you're watching from above. Gina my eyes burn so much from crying and my head hurts from thinking about you being away from us (ME). WHY, does it have to be like this? I will never understand it or accept it, I know I have to live the rest of my life with you above me. But if there were stairs I would be right there by your side. I watched Ghost the other day and I loved it before your accident, but now I watch it with a different view. Did you feel like that, was it so much love, could you see your family around? I pray it was for you, because I wouldn't want you in pain. I know you don't want me in pain, but I"m your MOTHER and I'm suppose to be gone before you. I MISS YOU SO MUCH SWEETPEA no one will ever know how much I hurt inside. You are everything to me, much more then I knew. Why does life have to keep going on and on? I know for some reason and I'll know but YOU SHOULD BE HERE. GOD HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHY MY LITTLE GIRL HAD TO LEAVE? I love you so much honey. We had our family photo's taken Saturday night, and I had your photo with me and your photo was taken also with us. GINA WE ALL MISS AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. HOW LONG AM I GOING TO BE HERE WITHOUT YOU? COME TO ME SWEETPEA, I NEED YOU. I miss my BEST FRIEND.
Remembering Gina / Dora Dalton (Aunt)
I was fortunate to have spent time with Gina the day before her accident. The warm loving memories of those few hours I will always cherish. I found this poem and it describes how Gina was that day, and how I will always remember her full of life, laughter,and love. Afterglow I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one. I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done. I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the way, of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days. I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun of happy memories that I leave when life is done. Anonymous
Tributes and Condolences
Last night I finally had another Dream about you SweetPea. I can't remember all of it, but you were a little girl. We went somewhere together and I kept on saying "Come on Gina" and everyone thought I was crazy. I could see you, but no one else could. But I didn't know it right away and I kept saying over and over Look at Gina, she's here, she didn't leave us she right beside me. You should of seen the look on friends and family faces. We were together no matter where we were. I was holding your hand and loving you every minute. 
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